Dedicated By: Mum
Message:
It’s too painful to remember you, but I feel your absence.
I miss you every day, although I don’t think of you because my brain hurts too much.
I thought God let me down because He let them kill you … let them force me to murder.
But the physical world is not the most important, the spiritual world is.
Where you are safe with Jesus Christ. Where I have been kept safe from choosing to murder.
I feel like I failed you, even though none of us really had freedom to ‘succeed’.
And I am so sorry, too, to those I saw die, those I tortured, those I helped become victims.
I know I am supposed to wish I died in your place, but really
I just wish none of us ever had to suffer. Drowning babies … how can I ever be free?
My son … did you live, afterall? Have you get away now?
Let’s all stand together knowing even if we never meet on earth,
our shared pain means we are never really alone in these sufferings.