Dedicated By: Linda
Message:
To all of you, and others I don’t remember……. How can I express
how sorry I am for your deaths……. Brown haired girl…..I’m sorry
I chose you to died in my place….I know you forgive me, but I want to
say it, “I’m sorry.” You were just an innocent little girl, but I was
too scared to die. Little boy…..you were the choosen victim for me to
practice my assasination training…..you were so innocent and trusting.
It broke my heart to have to betray your trust. Thank you for your forgiveness.
I look forward to seeing you in heaven. Rapist……you are the only one
who holds unforgiveness and anger against me. You were another chosen
victim for my assasination training. I want you to know I forgive you
for raping me. You just saw a little girl you wanted to have sex with.
You didn’t know I was a trained killer and you were my practice session.
You took me out into the woods to rape met, but only I came back. I ask
for your forgiveness for killing you. I know that you may not be unable
or willing to give it, but I’m asking. We were both just pawns in this
evil game. Little girl….I have so much pain over your death…..pain
that I could be trained to be so unfeeling, and kill so robotically. I’m
sorry. You were just a young innocent victim. I’m sooo sorry for the pain
you experienced. I can still hear your screams….May the Lord bless you
and be your comfort and strength. aBaby girl. I found you in a trash can.
I cared for you and loved you sooo. I couldn’t bear to see you suffer
anymore, be abused anymore. You kept getting sicker and sicker, weaker
and weaker. I only wanted to put you out of your suffering. I knew of
no other way. I know you are with the Lord now. I wish I could of saved
you…..I wish we could of grown up together. I wish I could of cared
for you til you were grown. It broke my heart to have to put you back
in the trash can, lifeless, but not hurting anymore. Take care baby girl….I
look forward to seeing you when I go to be with the Lord. Sacrificial
baby……what a painful memory……I was just a baby myself….6 years
old. I was horrified….scared…..I had to cut you up for the sacrifice.
It was so hard to hear your screams. I tried to numb and harden myself
to them. I had to do the cutting right or I would be punished. You poor,
poor, innocent baby. I’m so sorry for you and the painful, horrible death
you had to experience. No one to show you the care and comfort you deserved…..I’M
SOOOO SORRY. I’m glad your pain is over an you are with the Lord……receiving
his comfort and being ministered to by the angels…..you deserve that,
and so much more. Can you forgive me? We will see each other in Heaven,
and cry together, for all our pain. Linda